Every day in the record of my life since October 27th, 2012 has an asterisk next to it. There is not a evening that passes where I do not think about what that day would have been like if Rees were a part of it. I constantly find myself qualifying each day as “this is as good as it can be, considering my little boy is no longer here”. This asterisk follows me constantly. I can no more outrun, or hide from it anymore than one can hide from their shadow on a sunny day. I see the asterisk in my wife’s eyes when she smiles. I see the asterisk is my Daughters’ eyes when they act out in frustration. The asterisk punctuates every major milestone we celebrate and accentuates the most trying of times. I loved my life before it became my life*.
I wish removing the asterisk to … Read More