editor’s note: This post was originally published in July of 2014 but has been updated to include recent events.

The first few weeks of grief after losing a child are a mixture of rage, sadness, helplessness and fear: An unstable concoction that can react and explode at any given moment.  As someone who can now count himself among the unfortunate fraternity of those who lost a child I am sometimes asked by people to reach out to others who have recently suffered the same loss.  The almost universal inquiry that follows is if I can say something , anything, that will help them or guide them along their path.  Sadly, it is in those early days that words will have little or no effect.  I cannot describe the hysteria that is felt in the immediate aftermath other than to say it is a wheel of emotions in perpetual flux.  You are in an unnerving state of constant emotional change and nothing can stop that wheel from making its revolutions.  One thing I do tell these grieving parents is that it is important to feel every single one of those emotions in order to begin the process of healing.  Just as in chemistry, the reactants must come together to form a new product.  As the reaction proceed energy is released – sometimes furiously.  The products can only form in the wake of tumult and chaos. There is no other way to produce the end product.  Similarly, the grieving parent must experience and acknowledge every ounce of rage, sadness, helplessness and fear, as those feelings catalyze the synthesis of the “new normal”  they will eventually find themselves in.

Often times when I speak to grieving parents  (myself included) they recognize the fact that their friends and family want to help them – either through actions or words, but that very little resonates; at least at first.  Most people’s instinct in the wake of child-loss is to say things that they think will help the grieving parents. Paradoxically, at least to those who never suffered the loss and don’t truly understand it, those first few weeks are the worst time to hear advice on grief.   The reaction that child-loss generates is so volatile that our first thought is to “help” our hurting loved ones  and try to say anything (and often everything) that we think will “make it all better”.  In a way, our loved ones try in vain to keep the reactants of sadness, anger, rage and hopelessness away from the grieving as a means to avoid the combustion that follows.  Although the intentions of our loved ones is pure, they really can’t fathom what the grieving parent is going through.   For our loved ones recognizing the magnitude of the loss you experienced, coupled with their intrinsic fear of it happening to them,  results in the subconscious thought that they don’t want to even imagine what you are going through.  This is not an indictment of those we love, rather it is simply a function of the brain’s coping mechanism for something often described as unimaginable.

Outliving our children is not unimaginable, every parent has imagined that scenario and then tucked the thought away as quickly as it appeared.  No, losing a child is simply nature’s greatest cruelty and it represents a primal fear we simply do not ever want to face ourselves.  When a loved one loses a child there is no hiding, no tucking away of the thought.  We are forced to witness a reaction that is explosive and violent:  Of course we want to put out the flames, it’s only natural.  This natural need to try and fix that which is broken in those we care about leads to statements like:  “Look for the signs and you will see he is with you…”.  Those very words were uttered by countless people in the wake of Rees’ death.  To be honest, at the time and from my perspective, they offered very little comfort and often times just deepened the wound his absence caused.  I remember resenting hearing those words from people.  I knew they meant well.  I know they said it because they cared. Continue reading

We are so excited to announce that we have won the Grand Prize from KIND Snacks #Morekind “Nice” Vs. Kind video contest! Watch the video to see what we plan to do with the winnings – and the wonderful surprise we got from KIND Snacks founder and CEO Daniel Lubetzky. We can’t thank KIND snacks enough for helping us ensure that Rees’ legacy will continue to cultivate kindness and teach water safety for many years to come.

Our son Richard Edwin-Ehmer Specht (Rees) drowned in 18 inches of water.  A simple miscommunication between my friend and I meant that one of the most crucial layers of protection from drowning had broken down.  Had Rees started swim lessons as an infant (like his younger sister, Melina has) he would probably be here today.  Nothing can bring our son back, but our joint effort with End Drowning Now and Saf-T-Swim swim schools is trying to make sure that we don’t lose any more children to drowning.  Help us teach children to ReesSpecht the Water.  Drowning remains the number one cause of accidental death of children aged 1-4.  Help us change that number to 0!

For more information go to www.EndDrowningNow.org and www.Saf-T-Swim.com

Five years ago today we did our first of 500 random acts of kindness in Rees’ name. We just wanted to pay back the kindness of those that helped us through the darkest moment of our lives. Armed with the card pictured to the left, I took my two daughters to our local Dunkin’ Donuts and simply paid for the car behind me – leaving the card (and our story on the back) to hopefully remind that person that kindness makes a difference.  I honestly figured that it was simply the first of 499 more acts left to go.  My family and I could have never imagined what happened next…

Watch the following video as my daughters and I head back to that very same Dunkin’ Donuts – exactly five years to the day, to leave the 500,001st ReesSpecht Life “Pay it Forward” card…

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We now have a limited number of these special cards available through our online shop.  Don’t worry, you can still order our regular cards (orders of 5-10 are still completely free)!   Click HERE to order your set of 20 or 100.

These last five years have proven that kindness truly makes a difference.  Your support helps us to continue to prove this.  The ReesSpecht Life Foundation wouldn’t be where it is today without your continued support.  Thank you, from the bottom of our hearts.

ReesSpechtfully,

Rich and Sam Specht

You can help us make “Rees Specht Kindness Day” (12/19 in New York State) extra special for our foundation and our family. Just click here: https://poll.fbapp.io/nefcu-seasons-of-giving/xnzLS8xO
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Your vote will help us continue spreading the seeds of kindness in Rees’ name and make what would have been his 7th birthday an even bigger celebration of Kindness. ❤

Thank you all. From the bottom of my heart.
Rees’ Daddy.

One single click on the following link and choosing ReesSpecht Life will help us win $2500 from NEFCU this year!  Last year we won a similar contest from them and proceeded to donate our winnings AND match the same for the two charities that finished in second and third place (that contest only paid the winner!).  This year we are hoping your support will allow us to win again!  Simply click on the following link and choose ReesSpecht Life as the charity!  You can vote 1 time per day over the next ten days!  Help us win $2500 and keep spreading the seeds of kindness in 2018!

Here is the link: https://poll.fbapp.io/nefcu-seasons-of-giving/xnzLS8xO

Thank you!