editor’s note: This post was originally published in July of 2014 but has been updated to include recent events.

The first few weeks of grief after losing a child are a mixture of rage, sadness, helplessness and fear: An unstable concoction that can react and explode at any given moment.  As someone who can now count himself among the unfortunate fraternity of those who lost a child I am sometimes asked by people to reach out to others who have recently suffered the same loss.  The almost universal inquiry that follows is if I can say something , anything, that will help them or guide them along their path.  Sadly, it is in those early days that words will have little or no effect.  I cannot describe the hysteria that is felt in the immediate aftermath other than to say it is a wheel of emotions in perpetual flux.  You are in an unnerving state of constant emotional change and nothing can stop that wheel from making its revolutions.  One thing I do tell these grieving parents is that it is important to feel every single one of those emotions in order to begin the process of healing.  Just as in chemistry, the reactants must come together to form a new product.  As the reaction proceed energy is released – sometimes furiously.  The products can only form in the wake of tumult and chaos. There is no other way to produce the end product.  Similarly, the grieving parent must experience and acknowledge every ounce of rage, sadness, helplessness and fear, as those feelings catalyze the synthesis of the “new normal”  they will eventually find themselves in.

Often times when I speak to grieving parents  (myself included) they recognize the fact that their friends and family want to help them – either through actions or words, but that very little resonates; at least at first.  Most people’s instinct in the wake of child-loss is to say things that they think will help the grieving parents. Paradoxically, at least to those who never suffered the loss and don’t truly understand it, those first few weeks are the worst time to hear advice on grief.   The reaction that child-loss generates is so volatile that our first thought is to “help” our hurting loved ones  and try to say anything (and often everything) that we think will “make it all better”.  In a way, our loved ones try in vain to keep the reactants of sadness, anger, rage and hopelessness away from the grieving as a means to avoid the combustion that follows.  Although the intentions of our loved ones is pure, they really can’t fathom what the grieving parent is going through.   For our loved ones recognizing the magnitude of the loss you experienced, coupled with their intrinsic fear of it happening to them,  results in the subconscious thought that they don’t want to even imagine what you are going through.  This is not an indictment of those we love, rather it is simply a function of the brain’s coping mechanism for something often described as unimaginable.

Outliving our children is not unimaginable, every parent has imagined that scenario and then tucked the thought away as quickly as it appeared.  No, losing a child is simply nature’s greatest cruelty and it represents a primal fear we simply do not ever want to face ourselves.  When a loved one loses a child there is no hiding, no tucking away of the thought.  We are forced to witness a reaction that is explosive and violent:  Of course we want to put out the flames, it’s only natural.  This natural need to try and fix that which is broken in those we care about leads to statements like:  “Look for the signs and you will see he is with you…”.  Those very words were uttered by countless people in the wake of Rees’ death.  To be honest, at the time and from my perspective, they offered very little comfort and often times just deepened the wound his absence caused.  I remember resenting hearing those words from people.  I knew they meant well.  I know they said it because they cared. Continue reading






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Please consider supporting our 2016 Toy Drive!  This year we have over 40 drop-off locations in Nassau and Suffolk Counties.  Over the past four years, the ReesSpecht Life Foundation has collected over 10,000 toys for family’s in need.  We hope to make this year our most successful ever.  We cannot do it without your help.  Please refer to the list below for drop-off locations and addresses.  Drive runs from now until December 12th.  Thank you!

ReesSpechtfully,

Rich and Samantha Specht

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seeds-of-kindnessHelp us bring kindness front and center, where it belongs…

The ReesSpecht Life Foundation is running a short fundraiser to help us raise the funds to grow our programs and continue spreading the seeds of kindness world-wide.  We believe in the power of kindness to change the world for the better.  This past year has seen a great divide form in our country and it is our goal to remind us all that kindness is the greatest single factor that unites US ALL together.  We are offering these limited time “Spread the Seeds of Kindness” T-shirts and hoodies from now until December 4th only.  ALL proceeds from the sale will go to our charitable endeavors.  To view the items for sale, head over to www.booster.com/cultivate-kindness and buy a shirt.  It’s that simple.  Every shirt we sell helps us to plant the seeds of kindness.  Stop wishing for a better world and let us help make it happen, one Rees’ piece at a time.

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cultivatekindnessyinyangThis election brought out the worst in all of us and now it is (effectively) over.  Half of the country is celebrating and the other half is full of apprehension and fear.  As I write this my Facebook feed is blowing up with many of my friends and family lamenting the coming apocalypse.  I for one am actually relieved.  I tend to get worked up in the short term and then calm down and collect my thoughts and get right back to solving problems.

Nothing has changed for me tonight.  Nothing will change in January.  My path going forward is unhindered and the only thing that will change along that way is the scenery.  I remember the feeling of absolute hopelessness I had after my little boy died four years ago.  In that moment I thought I would never get past the terrible loss I endured.  It felt as if a part of my soul was ripped out and that life was just not worth living anymore.  It felt like my own little, personal, apocalypse.  The truth is it’s never as bad as you think…

Soon after Rees died I started to think about his loss, and its effect on me, and began to look at it as a problem that needed solving.  Life threw one of the worst experiences it could at me.  I recognized that this terrible negative could only be countered by a positive of equal magnitude.  The darkness of the void Rees’ passing created seemed limitless; requiring a commensurate power to illuminate it.  I found that power.  It is kindness.

It was the kindness of family, friends and strangers that lifted me from edge of the maw of hopelessness.  It was kindness that put a smile on my wife’s and my face when drove home from Rees’ memorial to see our yard completely cleaned up from the devastation of Hurricane Sandy.  It was kindness that put gas in our generator for the two weeks we were deprived of power in the wake of Rees’ passing.  It was kindness that reminded me of the best of people.  It was kindness that showed me that, no matter how bad things are, a generous act can always lift you up.  Kindness proved that no matter how far life may seem to beat you down, It’s never as bad as you think it is…

If it weren’t for Rees’ death, I don’t think I would have ever had the perspective I do now about just how powerful kindness is.  Seeing it’s power, in contrast to the devastation I felt, gave me hope where none existed before. It turns out that hope is the key.  Hope is the dividing line between darkness’ Yin and light’s Yang.  Hope is what got me through the worst time of my life – and if you let it in, it will help you get past the feelings you may have right now.

Hope is the secret ingredient that is baked into our democracy.  The founding fathers were wise men who understood that the way forward is accomplished by balancing the disparate views of the electorate.  The balance is not static – it is constantly in motion, tipping back and forth over time.  It turns out that hope is the fulcrum upon which everything is balanced.  Just when you think things will go too far on one side, hope shifts the load to bring balance back.  It may often seem like things are going to tip too far and bring the whole system down, but it’s never as bad as you think it is…

So tonight I sit here with that truth in mind.  Just as hope kept me from teetering into the maw of oblivion after Rees’ death, it will get you through this time.  And if you are happy with outcome, hope will help you see better days ahead.  So as we move forward into the next four years, let’s not let our differences divide us.  Let’s look to what we share, and cultivate that.  My mission this morning was to cultivate kindness, and it will remain my mission when I awake tomorrow.  Nothing has changed other than the scenery.  Don’t let divisiveness rule the day.  Let’s focus on the things that matter and let the other stuff balance itself out on the see-saw of life.  Regardless of how you feel today, the power to make the world a better place still resides in you.  It is my hope that you will continue to cultivate it, one kind act, one Rees’ piece, at a time…

RICH SPECHT is a father of four who holds a bachelor’s degree in biology from the University of Mary Washington and a master’s degree in liberal studies from Stony Brook University.  Prior to embarking on his career as a public speaker and advocate for kindness, Rich was a science teacher for 15 years at Great Hollow Middle School, in Nesconset, New York.  In addition to his speaking, Rich is also the published author of the award winning children’s book  A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness.  Rich and his wife, Samantha, are the co-founders of the ReesSpecht Life Foundation which they formed in the wake of the loss of their only son, Richard Edwin-Ehmer (Rees) Specht at 22 months old.  The acts of kindness that the family received after Rees’ passing inspired them to “pay forward” that kindness; which the foundation does in the form of scholarships for High School seniors who demonstrate a commitment to their community, compassion and respect, as well as the distribution of almost four hundred thousand ReesSpecht Life “pay it forward” cards.  The themes and characters from Rich’s book(s) are currently slated to become an animated children’s television series.  The book and television adaptations of A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness represents the culmination of Rich’s goal to help make this world a little better, one Rees’ piece at a time.  Rich currently resides in Sound Beach, New York with his wife, Samantha, daughters, Abigail, Lorilei and Melina as well as his angel above, Rees.

 






sometimes it is hard to look in the mirror

A reflection of all of us…

The end is nigh…

Thankfully, mercifully, the U.S. election season ends this coming Tuesday, November 8th.  I am almost certain that I speak for most of us that the date can’t arrive soon enough.  It seems like post after post on social media is about the election.  Friends share stories with me about people judging them based on their political choice.  Compared to four years ago things appear much worse now and the polarization seems ready to go nuclear.

The lamentation I most often see is the indignation of choosing between the “lesser of two evils” in this election.  Post after post on my news feed reiterates this.  These posts almost always end with the same conclusion:  “We don’t deserve candidates this bad.”

Of all the complaints that pop up on my social media accounts, the idea these candidates were “forced upon us” appears most frequently. To these people, the unpalatable choice of either candidate proves how broken the system is.

I couldn’t disagree more… Contrary to popular belief, the system is working exactly as intended.  In fact, I truly believe, the system is working perfectly.  Our founding fathers provided, within the framework of the constitution, a dynamic system that could adapt to an ever-changing society.

The beauty of our system is that it provides the opportunity, if we wish, of basically hitting the reset button every four years.  In theory, the nomination process should allow for people with similar viewpoints to choose a candidate that best represents them.  This candidate then runs against the choice of the group with disparate views and the electorate then gets the chance to choose the best of the best.

You call these two choices the best of the best?

The key here is this is the theory behind our election process, but is not how it works in practice.  In practice, only about twenty five percent of voting eligible Americans participate in the presidential primaries.  A full three quarters of us don’t participate in the process at all. The majority of Americans abdicate their power of choice to someone else.  We make the mistake of thinking that someone else will make the choice for us.  They are figuratively saying, “Wake me up when it’s time to elect a president”.

Therein lies the real problem.  The truth is that 75% of the people complaining about how deplorable Trump is and how corrupt Hillary is never made their voice heard in the first place!  Three quarters of us declined our chance to participate in the first place, yet we are now collectively complaining about the result of our apathy.  The enemy here isn’t Hillary or Donald.  The real enemy is our apathy.

I realize that this blog seems, at first glance, like a departure from my usual writings.  In fact, when I told my mother I was writing a blog about the election, she immediately cautioned me to “be careful what you write… you don’t want to offend anyone”.  It turns out this election is a perfect representation of everything our movement is about: Reminding people of the power we possess when we work towards a goal collectively.  As always, my intention is not to offend, rather to inspire.  I promised my mother that I would accomplish the latter. (Feel free to tell me in the comments if I succeeded)

ReesSpecht Life and its “Cultivate Kindness” message started in the midst of the 2012 elections.  November 3rd, 2012, one week after the tragic drowning of my son Rees, found me addressing the throng of people at his memorial.  I posed a simple request: Focus on that which brings us together – not what divides us.  In the days leading up to Rees’ death I too was a part of the chorus of discontent that permeated everything at the time.  The kindness we received in the wake of his death opened my eyes up to its inherent power.  I learned, the hard way, the error of focusing on our differences.  As I spoke, I vividly recall seeing heads nod in agreement.  Kindness, I said, was the one thing we could all agree on.  Our focus should be on lending a helping hand, raising each other up, not putting those who dissent down.

Everyone in attendance agreed, not because of some duty to assuage a grieving father, but because those words were truth. Those words are just as true today as they were four years ago.  Sadly, when I look at my newsfeed, I see what I saw then, only it’s even more pervasive now.  People see an existential threat to their being in the candidate they oppose.  All i hear is why one candidate is “the worst” and how voting for them is tantamount to willfully choosing to initiate the apocalypse.

How did it get this bad?  How are we in this position?  There are plenty of hands out there pointing the finger of blame trying to offer the answer – but their one finger is pointing at the wrong cause…

When we point the finger of blame at someone, there are three fingers pointing back to you – Anonymous

Each of us is to blame.  We each carry a piece of guilt for the ultimate transgression: Apathy.  The sad reality is that people are not as invested in our political system as they should be.  I hear excuses all the time as to why, but let’s be honest… Those answers are lies our brains tell us to make us feel better about the truth our apathy spawns.  Statistically, the majority of you reading this are more invested in; a) Your favorite sports team b) Your favorite reality TV show c) Celebrity gossip d) A hobby e) all of the above.  If you are, this isn’t a condemnation – it’s an affirmation of the truth.

The real reason we are stuck with the choice between Mr. Rock and Mrs. Hardplace is because, collectively, we didn’t invest the time into doing the little things that would make the biggest difference today.  Instead we chose the two candidates with name recognition, making the easy choice that allowed us to focus on what really matters – What Kim Kardashian is wearing today!

So that’s it then?  It’s all our fault because we don’t care.  Thank you Mr. Kindness for ruining my day…

Trump and Clinton are our societal reflection in the mirror.  It is no more possible to change the current state of this election than it is to instantly change your own reflection in the mirror.  The greatest irony is that self-reflection is the first step to changing our reflection in the mirror.  You must first identify the problem and then begin a plan to, incrementally and slowly, make the changes you need going forward.  In other words, you have to do it piece by piece.

One little piece at a time…  It’s not a coincidence that those very words are in our motto.  The one thing I truly understand now is that real, lasting, positive change does not happen in an instant.  It takes time.  It needs to be cultivated.  You cannot grow seeds if, at the same time you are trying to nurture them, you throw garbage on top of them.  If we want to make the world a better place, it has to start with us.  If this election proves anything it’s that people are willing to shatter the mirror rather than look at the reflection anymore.

Put the hammer down.  I understand you don’t like our reflection.  Stop pointing your finger, you are only pointing at yourself anyhow.  I challenge us all to be reflective and stop lamenting the image in the mirror.  I get that you are unhappy with the way things are; so go out and change it.  If you don’t think that is possible read this:

As I stood in front of family and friends last night I spoke from my heart: a broken heart whose pieces the love of all those present began to restore and fortify. Cynicism and doubt defined me for far too long, and the outpouring of support is restoring my faith in humanity. My Son did not die in vain, for I have a new purpose in life; to channel his spirit and try to restore all of our faith in what we can do when we come together. As A society we have moved in a direction too concerned with the material things that do not matter, and I wish to reset our compasses to the intangibles of love, compassion and cooperation. Pass this on to all those who matter to you… And more importantly pass this along to those who you have not considered or thought twice about. ReesSpecht life.  – Richard Specht 11/3/2012

I wrote those words the night of my little boy’s memorial.  A night four days removed from the devastation of Super Storm Sandy.  A night where I feared no one would show up, only to see the funeral home filled beyond capacity.  My reflection of that night changed the course of my life and lives of countless others touched by the over 390,000 kindness cards distributed worldwide in Rees’ name.  Prior to that moment I felt as you may now… That my world was beyond repair and all hope was lost.  That all changed when I had the chance to reflect on the best the world has to offer and work to cultivate it.

Some people tell me I chose the hard path, and that others couldn’t do this.  To those people I say, “Put the hammer down”.  The best case scenario from smashing that mirror is you being stuck picking up a million pieces of your shattered self.  The worst case?  You cut yourself – deeply.  Changing your reflection doesn’t happen all at once.  Changing your world doesn’t happen all at once.  The greatest, and longest lasting, change happens when we focus on the little things and work to make them better.  Stop complaining about the state of the world and start making it better.  Focus on what brings us together and cultivate that.  The world isn’t going to end on November 9th, so what are you waiting for then?  Go out and make this world a better place, one Rees’ piece at a time…

RICH SPECHT is a father of four who holds a bachelor’s degree in biology from the University of Mary Washington and a master’s degree in liberal studies from Stony Brook University.  Prior to embarking on his career as a public speaker and advocate for kindness, Rich was a science teacher for 15 years at Great Hollow Middle School, in Nesconset, New York.  In addition to his speaking, Rich is also the published author of the award winning children’s book  A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness.  Rich and his wife, Samantha, are the co-founders of the ReesSpecht Life Foundation which they formed in the wake of the loss of their only son, Richard Edwin-Ehmer (Rees) Specht at 22 months old.  The acts of kindness that the family received after Rees’ passing inspired them to “pay forward” that kindness; which the foundation does in the form of scholarships for High School seniors who demonstrate a commitment to their community, compassion and respect, as well as the distribution of almost four hundred thousand ReesSpecht Life “pay it forward” cards.  The themes and characters from Rich’s book(s) are currently slated to become an animated children’s television series.  The book and television adaptations of A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness represents the culmination of Rich’s goal to help make this world a little better, one Rees’ piece at a time.  Rich currently resides in Sound Beach, New York with his wife, Samantha, daughters, Abigail, Lorilei and Melina as well as his angel above, Rees.

 

 






I swore he was in that seat again...

Richard “Rees” Specht 12/19/10 – 10/27/12

Four years, 390,000 kindness cards and one promise.

Tomorrow, October 27th, 2016 will mark four years since we lost our little boy to a drowning in our backyard pond.  That figure seems incalculably large when contrasted against how long each day, hour, minute and second felt right after my son died.  Back then, time seemed to possess a cruel irony: Every second after he left us feeling like an eternity, while the 22 months he was here passing instantaneously.

Four years later and I have found that time has yet again managed to impart another cruelty upon me: It feels as though we lost him both yesterday and a lifetime ago. How can it be that time has both moved faster than I can perceive while simultaneously seeming to stand still?  My memories of him seem to have faded commensurate to time’s passage, yet my love for him remains as strong as it ever was.  It’s a paradox that vexes my, sometimes overly logical, brain.

The paradoxes don’t end there.  I often find myself wishing to make this pain go away, only to realize that my pain is a manifestation of my love I cannot directly express to him anymore.  Memories of past embraces find me holding nothing but anguish.  The echoes of his laughter, physically long gone, still reverberate in my mind.  Yesterday’s hope, filled with joy as I watched him grow is replaced with today’s sorrow that he will never grow up.

With each new yesterday gone by, time seems bent on taking little pieces of him away while simultaneously reminding me that he is gone. Time is that travel companion that never leaves your side, never stops talking AND makes you carry all the baggage.  I often wish I could simply ditch this unwanted travel-mate, but I know there is nowhere to go in which it wont find me.  No matter how much I try to ignore it, time always has a way of catching back up and reminding me of the things I would rather forget…

They say the more that things change, the more they stay the same.  I never truly understood that saying until recently.  As the strain in my relationship with my temporal companion grows, I see that the linear path I thought we were on together is more like a circle.  I feel like I am moving ahead, but time keeps tugging at me, ever so slightly, causing my path to imperceptibly arc and circle back on itself.  All I want to do is move forward and time keeps bringing me back to where I started.

It took four years, but I am pretty certain that I just finished my first circuit.  Four years ago, as I stood in front of family, friends, and even complete strangers at Rees’ memorial, I unknowingly started on the path I find myself on today.  Both Samantha and I were so worried that no one would come that night because of gas shortages, power outages and communications blackouts caused by Super Storm Sandy.  We were “lucky” to even find a funeral home that was open, much less get word out that a memorial was being held.  We thought we would be alone that night.  We were wrong.

I remember being overwhelmed by the sheer number of people who made their way out to to support my wife Samantha and I in our most desperate time.  So many people showed up that the police needed to direct traffic outside the funeral home and we had to extend the visiting time to accommodate the throng of people who filled the funeral home to capacity and wrapped around the outside, waiting to get in.

Little did I know, but that night was the beginning of the ReesSpecht Life Foundation and the Cultivate Kindness movement.  As that evening wore on, my close friend Jim asked me if I wanted to say something to everyone.  At first I declined, but he encouraged me to say a few words, explaining that those words would mean a lot to the people who were there and perhaps be healing for myself as well.  After a small deliberation, I finally agreed and I spoke to everyone there…

The words that came out of my mouth were unexpected by everyone in the funeral home, including myself.  While I thanked everyone there, I didn’t really talk about Rees or myself and my family.  Instead, I talked about the people who were there to support us; helping to lift Samantha and I up in our time of despair.  As I stood there, looking at all these different people, something struck me.  I realized that these were the very same friends and relatives who were, just several days prior, arguing and complaining about (and to) each other about the 2012 Presidential election.  I was instantly drawn to the contrast I was witnessing of the disparate group of people all coming together for something they all agreed in: Helping someone in need.  Being there to raise a family from the depths of despair.  Showing kindness in the wake of the worst thing that can happen to a parent.

I asked everyone there a simple question: “Why are you here?” – which I answered immediately, “To raise Samantha and I up.  To be a positive to counter this great negative that has befallen us.”.  I then asked the next question that came to my mind. It’s the question that started our whole movement: “Why is it we wait until something tragic has happened to use this power we have to lift others up?”  That one question then lead to several more…  “Why do wait until something is negative to use the power of positivity to return it to neutral?  Imagine if we used this power everyday?  A positive charge applied to a neutral system makes the whole system positive.”  I will never forget the look on everybody’s faces:  A look of acknowledgement and understanding.  I ended my brief talk with a simple request to “start to do the little positive things that help make this world a better place for us all.”

That brief talk, which I thought was a fitting ending to what I witnessed that night turned out to be the very seed that started our movement. Brian, a colleague of mine from work, sought me out at the end of the night to tell me that my words reverberated within in him.  He pointed out that what I was talking about was the essence of respect for each other and that he couldn’t shake the connection with our little boy’s nickname, “Rees” and his last name, Specht.  “ReesSpecht Life”, Brian he suggested softly.  “You should start a foundation using his name and promoting the very idea you shared tonight.”

The moment Brian said that a light started to flicker in the darkness of the void Rees’ passing had created.  Over the next few weeks that light would continue to grow brighter as I started to share my writings on Facebook.  I started a Facebook page called “ReesSpecht Life” and we counted a couple hundred followers who encouraged me to share more about the stories of kindness we received in the wake of Rees’ passing.  For the next couple of months I continued to write and share those stories, but it started to feel like something was missing.  We wanted to do more to pay back the kindness we had received, except no one would let us pay them back.

We had experienced so many wonderful acts of kindness from the kindest people I have ever known.  There were so many acts of kindness for me to share, like Bill Kelly from Kelly Brother’s landscaping completely restoring my yard from the damage Sandy wrought and removing the pond Rees drowned in.  He wouldn’t take anything in return.  My cousin Peter waiting in a gas-line for hours to get us gas for our generator.  My colleague Michelle who organized and gathered together some boys in our community to deliver and stack wood for us to use to heat our home.  Friends, family and co-workers who made us so many meals that we literally didn’t have to cook for almost six months.  All this kindness, and no one would let us pay them back.

Front and back of our orignal "Pay it Forward" cards.

Front and back of our orignal “Pay it Forward” cards.

Since no one would let us pay them back we decided to print up our kindness cards so that we could “pay it forward”.  Our goal was to perform 500 random acts of kindness and leave the card emblazoned with Rees’ image and name behind for each one of those acts.  The cards were part of my promise to my little boy that, in some small way, the world would get to know him through these acts of kindness in his name.  Little did I know at the time but our very first act of kindness, using one of the cards at a local Dunkin Donuts Drive-thru, started a chain reaction that continues to grow until this day.

The world does know his name...

The world does know his name…

As I write this, over 390,000 of our cards have been distributed, worldwide.  In only three and half years our Facebook page went from a couple hundred, local, followers to over 70,000 world-wide today.  We have distributed over 10,000 copies of our children’s book.  I’ve had the honor of speaking to over 30,000 students about the power of kindness.  I’ll admit, as things continued to grow, I really felt like I was honoring that promise to my little boy and making good on my words to add a little positivity to the world.  I really thought we were moving forward, until I found myself back where it all started…

Today my Facebook feed and everyday conversations seemed filled with the same vitriol and blaming it was four years ago. I see people openly disparaging others because they don’t share the same views. Here we are again, focusing on that which divides us.  Focusing on the negative and placing the blame on others.  I see people emboldened to “tell it like it is” and put other’s down because they are “different”.  I watch in horror as people look outward for someone else to “fix” all our problems.  The fingers of blame seem to be pointed everywhere.

Four years ago I thought I stumbled upon a solution to this very problem that made sense.  You cannot lend a helping hand when that hand is already pointing the finger of blame at someone else.  I really believed that as people saw what one little idea, one tiny little seed of kindness, could do they would recognize that the power to make this world a better place does not lie in the words and promises of one person…  I truly thought they would come to understand that we each play a role in making a change, and that collectively we can make a difference.  For once, I thought time was on my side – proving that we could make a real change in only short amount of it.   The scientist in me thought that the proof was in the incredible numbers of acts of kindness performed in the name of one little boy.

And it is.  The proof is actually there.  It was right in front of my face the whole time.  I realize the mistake I was making is the same mistake we all make when considering distance and time.  We think that as we move forward we do so in a straight line.  The reality is that there are imperceptible forces acting on either side of that forward movement.  Those forces are the choices we make between positive and negative – good and bad.  As we think we are moving forward our good choices pull us slightly to one side, while our bad choices pull us in the opposite direction.  If the good equals the bad, then the net motion is in a straight line, but not in the direction you were originally headed.  In mathematics this is known as a vector.  However, if one force is greater than the other, the line begins to arc.  That arc, if allowed to continually propagate, forms a circle…

That circle has us right back where we started four years ago.  At a quick glance, it would appear that we accomplished nothing.  Nothing has changed. Here we are, right back where we started.  People are pointing fingers, insulting each other and focusing on the negative. The circle has closed itself, ready to start the cycle anew.  I guess we failed then.  Right?  Wrong.  The truth is something that I need to remind myself of often.  The truth is that all of our efforts are a part of what helped make this journey a circle and not a vector headed in the absolute opposite direction.

As humans we tend to focus on the beginnings and endings of journeys but rarely consider the path that took us there.  I can lament the fact that in many ways, we are right back at the point we started four years ago, but that would be dismissing the journey itself and our effect on its path.  Therein lies the proof of everything we have espoused since day one… that change is made, not in great strokes by one person, but rather through the collective actions of many working in unison.  If we want to change the world, we cannot look at it as failure when our efforts find us back at the starting point.  We have to understand the role we took in ensuring we made it back to that point in the first place!  We need to recognize our actions kept us from falling off the precipice and put us back into the position to try to straighten the circle this time around.

So it is here that I find myself four years out from the moment that changed the trajectory of my life forever.  Time, my ceaseless (and often unwanted) companion, is still here by my side.  I can sit here and lament that, at a quick glance, nothing has changed in those 126,230,400 seconds… That I am back right where I started.  Sure, I could do that.  In fact, most people do and they certainly wouldn’t fault me for it.  The problem with that is by doing so, I ignore the journey and the effect that journey had on getting us back to this point.  The path to success never looks the way we think it should.  I made a promise to my little boy four years ago that his legacy was going to help make a difference in this world.  As long as time remains by my side, I am never going to stop trying to fulfill that promise.  Never let anyone tell you that you don’t matter.  We are, each of us, a difference maker.  390,000 kindness cards and we are still here, ready to make even more of a difference, one little Rees’ piece at a time…

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headshot squareRICH SPECHT is a father of four who holds a bachelor’s degree in biology from the University of Mary Washington and a master’s degree in liberal studies from Stony Brook University.  Prior to embarking on his career as a public speaker and advocate for kindness, Rich was a science teacher for 15 years at Great Hollow Middle School, in Nesconset, New York.  In addition to his speaking, Rich is also the published author of the award winning children’s book  A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness.  Rich and his wife, Samantha, are the co-founders of the ReesSpecht Life Foundation which they formed in the wake of the loss of their only son, Richard Edwin-Ehmer (Rees) Specht at 22 months old.  The acts of kindness that the family received after Rees’ passing inspired them to “pay forward” that kindness; which the foundation does in the form of scholarships for High School seniors who demonstrate a commitment to their community, compassion and respect, as well as the distribution of almost four hundred thousand ReesSpecht Life “pay it forward” cards.  The themes and characters from Rich’s book(s) are currently slated to become an animated children’s television series produced by Safier Entertainment.  The book and television adaptations of A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness represents the culmination of Rich’s goal to help make this world a little better, one Rees’ piece at a time.  Rich currently resides in Sound Beach, New York with his wife, Samantha, daughters, Abigail, Lorilei and Melina as well as his angel above, Rees.






Fall (Revised and updated from original post)

IMG_0670There was a time in my life where fall was by far my favorite season of the year.  From the almost daily receding of temperatures from the extremes of summer, to the imperceptible bleeding of the orange, yellow and red hues from a verdant sea,  the majesty of fall and its dynamic changes always left me with a sense of awe and inspiration.  Fall meant football, trick or treating, crisp cool nights, and a return of the warming comfort meals too hot to enjoy during the sweltering days of summer.    No season is more aptly named than fall; its beginning signaling the end of the summer chores of mowing, gardening, weeding, fertilizing and all the other landscaping minutiae – the work of which is literally and figuratively wiped away in a downward cascade of color from the trees above.

From one perspective, fall could be viewed as the start of our descent into winter’s darkness and the dearth of warmth; the signaling of decline and the onset of despair.  Fortunately, for most I think, fall’s majestic colors and sights are more like the grand finale of a fireworks display, the experience of which leaves us with an adrenaline rush that carries us through most of winter’s bleak coldness.  Fall’s splendor paints a picture of vivid colors, the after-image of which allows us to see past the barren bones of the leafless trees during the desolation that is winter.  The majesty of fall therefore serves more as a triumphant climax to the splendor that is life,  as opposed to a harbinger of the bleak times ahead.  For most people this is true – and at one time it was for me, until the season of fall became irrevocably and unmistakably associated with the worst moment of my life.

I remember that day as if it were a digital recording stored in my mind; the images crisp, clear never fading.  I perfectly recall the pungent odor of freshly raked leaves mixed with a tinge of exhaust that permeated the air that warm fall afternoon.  I remember the overcast skies belying the unusual warmth of a date that found its position on the calendar closer to winter than to summer.  I recall in exacting detail the outfit Rees wore that afternoon, what he had for lunch and snack, as well as his incorrigible mood that kept him home with me rather than joining my wife and my daughters on an  all-day shopping spree.

I acutely remember Rees’ nap that day.  He was starting to make the transition from toddler to full fledged little boy, and his nap time had already begun to edge closer and closer to that point where it and bedtime merge together into one.  He had fought off sleep most of the morning and was really grouchy; an anomaly that precipitated Samantha making the decision to leave him home with me to perhaps get an earlier nap than was his then normal nap-time.  I remember contemplating putting our outdoor lawn furniture away during this time, but eventually deciding not to just in case he were to wake or something happened to him and I would not be able to hear.  Instead, I decided to wait out his nap and make the necessary preparations for the looming Hurricane Sandy at a time when someone would be able to watch him.

It was during this time that I received the fateful call that put into place the domino like sequence of events that would eventually lead to my little boy’s death.  Not long after Rees settled down, my best friend, ( a term I do do not use lightly whom, in an effort to protect his anonymity, I will refer to as Dave) called to tell me he was getting off work early and was stopping over earlier than his anticipated evening arrival.  You see, Dave had already agreed to watch my children that night so that my wife and I could go out on a date night – a real treat that only married couples with young children have the pleasure of savoring like a bottle of rare wine.  When Dave arrived, Rees was still sleeping, and Dave offered to get him up from his nap.

I count myself blessed to say that I am gifted with many friends, both old and new.  Some friends I made in college, some from work, and a couple, very special friends whom I met in elementary school.  My oldest friends remain a fixture in my life, though our lives find us in different places geographically.  Out of all these people whom I can call a true friend there was always one that stood out…someone like a brother:  My friend Dave.  Dave was that friend who you could tell anything to, do anything with and just be yourself.  He shared my interests in the outdoors, video games and just about everything else.  Instead of being mirror images of each other, we were more like two complimentary pieces: I was the Yin to his Yang.  Dave had a free living side to him that always tested my cautious and cerebral approach.  He challenged me to break out and try new things that I would never contemplate on my own.  Conversely, I was a leveling influence on him, helping him to slow down and think more about his actions at times.  Dave was the friend who I could let myself go with, who challenged me to break some barriers I would never think of on my own.  He was a free spirit with a big heart and I can truly say I love him like a brother.

I met Dave back in first grade and we hit it off almost immediately.  There was rarely a weekend that went by from that early time through High School that we did not spend at each other’s house.  Dave became just as much a fixture in my home as I was in his.  We were family, and it never got old hanging out with him.  I recall fondly many a night wasted , well spent , playing games until the sun peaked up, eating chips, drinking soda and laughing (mostly at muted levels so as to not wake our parents) the whole time.  We disclosed our innermost hopes and dreams for the future, both eagerly and anxiously anticipating its arrival, in addition to our deepest and most private fears that we wouldn’t dare share with anyone else.  Never in our discussions was there even the slightest expectation that we would not be a part of each other’s adult lives.  Whatever our futures held, we knew that they were undeniably entwined.

As we got older and life’s realities ebbed more and more into the forefront of our lives, our paths diverged: whereas mine forked to the left, leading me to Fredericksburg, Va where I attended college, Dave’s path meandered to the right, delivering him into the arms of Mother Navy.  Alas, his tenure in the Navy was brief, as its structure and regimented lifestyle stood in deep opposition to Dave’s free-wheeling, let-it-all-hang-out code of arms.  Consequently, as my life progressed over the ensuing years, his stagnated.  His foothold in the job market was tenuous at best: he couldn’t seem to hold one for any meaningful length of time, and instead, became involved with things he never should have.  Through all of his troubles, I always tried to be there for him, to make myself accounted for in his life, and to assure him that he was still every bit a meaningful part of mine.  I wanted to help him, to guide him…to simply be there for my friend in whichever way was most useful.  I felt obligated to help him, even when his other friends had turned away.  He was my brother.  And when I could not help him solve his problems it tore me apart.  The problem solver in me wanted so badly to cure what ailed him, but often I could do nothing.  I never gave up trying.  I battled on…even amidst the encroaching feeling of helplessness.  Regardless of the issues Dave faced, our relationship changed very little.  Whenever we did see one another we were still those two boys just enjoying our adventures together.  Those adventures continued through the birth of my three children.

Dave’s arrival at my house was always greeted with the revelry reserved for the likes of Santa Claus or Mickey Mouse, and this day was no different. “Uncle Dave”, as my children called him, was the ultimate playmate.  I would always marvel at how well he got along with my children.  I know a great deal of their love for him was the fact he was in many ways just a big kid himself – a kid who would do anything to make them smile.

Rees’ smile upon Dave’s arrival was all the evidence I needed to know he was excited to see him. Dave immediately rewarded Rees’ excitement with a trip outside to the pond to feed the fish.  I recall looking out the back window and seeing Rees and Dave tending to the pond and smiling, reveling in the knowledge that my son enjoyed the company of my lifelong friend as much as I.

When Dave and Rees returned inside it was then that I made the fateful request of my friend that would set in motion the tragic series of events that lead to Rees’ drowning.  Realizing that I now possessed the ultimate babysitter for Rees, I asked Dave to watch Rees while I cleaned up the lawn furniture outside.  He happily obliged and I went about cleaning up while Rees and Uncle Dave played outside.   About 40 minutes later I had all the furniture put away and I found myself in the final stages of preparing for the storm…

By this time, Rees and Dave were in the driveway in front of my garage as I started sweeping it out in an attempt to evacuate the leaves and dust that had surreptitiously found their way inside.  It was at this time that I noticed Rees was playing with something he should not have – a collectible Mets Truck that was on display in Rees’ room that was out of his reach on a high shelf.  When I questioned Dave about how Rees got the truck he explained to me that when he had taken Rees inside to change his diaper Rees was pointing at it and he gave it to him.  I took the truck from Rees’ hand and handed it to Dave, questioning him as to why he would give a twenty-two month old a toy that was obviously not meant for his age.  Sadly, that was the last interaction I ever had with my little boy.  I took his truck away from him.  I yelled at his favorite uncle.  I made him cry.  The very last thing I ever did to my son was make him cry.

I then proceeded to close the garage doors and spent the next ten minutes looking for a way to fasten my garage doors down so that they would not leak during the torrent of rain and wind I knew would be approaching in under forty-eight hours.  Once I was satisfied that the doors were secured, I left my garage and made the walk from our detached garage to my house.  When I walked through my door to the kitchen, I saw Dave sitting on the couch, feet up, watching a movie.  I proceeded to head up the stairs and stopped in my tracks realizing I did not see Rees with him.  When I asked Dave where Rees was he replied with the words that will haunt me the rest of my days:  “I thought he was with you.”

I Thought He Was With You… six words that I cannot utter without a chill that runs down my spine and a sinking feeling that, when it is at its worst, forces me into a fetal position, unable to respond or react to the world around me.  “I thought he was with you“, the very words uttered to me provided my exact response.  I immediately knew the worst happened. There was no doubt in my mind.  There would have been some evidence of his life already detectable – a giggle, a toy banging, a squeal of frustration.  Instead, I was met with silence, – a silence so complete that the volume of my heart racing sounded like a jackhammer. I knew right where to run to, and run I did.

When I first approached the pond I had a millisecond of relief.  I could not see him, and there was no sign of struggle.  Perhaps he was wandering in the front was my thought – a thought immediately dashed by a glimpse of his still form floating face down among the leaves gathered in the corner of the pond.  I immediately grabbed him, and pulled him up and out in one swift motion, his body flailing, limp and lifeless.  He was cold.  He was grey.  I already knew he was dead.

“My little boy is dead, oh my God, my little boy is dead”, is all I could think of as I ran, cradling him close to my chest, towards the picnic table my father and I had built together 5 years prior.  I knew first aid and CPR, and immediately set to work.  If any doubt as to his fate had existed it was erased by the sponge-like response I felt as I compressed his chest.  Water gurgled as air  refused to enter his lungs.  I tried rescue breaths, even though current CPR guidelines did not call for them, in a vain attempt to force my lifeforce into him. Dave had already called 911 and the operator was trying to walk me through that which I already knew, but found difficulty in performing properly.  My rescue breaths, it would turn out, became my last kiss to my little boy – and I will never forget the smell of chicken nuggets and trix yogurt mixed with the unmistakable stench of vomit when I did so.

In what seemed to be no more than a few minutes the amazing men and women of the Sound Beach Fire Dept. descended upon my backyard and immediately went to work on Rees.  They intubated him, and cleared out as much water as they could.  A glimmer of hope was reignited when I saw Rees take what appeared to be a breath on his own, but sadly was only a reflexive motion of his diaphragm.  They carried my little boy away and I was left alone in the company of many.  The world was spinning, thoughts were racing, and cruelly, my chest was pounding – a stark and vivid contrast to the state of my little boy’s heart.  I remember thinking right there that I could rip my own beating heart out and place it in his chest.  I could take my life and give him another chance.  He did not deserve to be in that ambulance.  I did.

I remember the police officer who came to take me to the hospital as vividly as every other part of that day.  He was an older gentleman with a greying moustache and he had the unmistakable odor on him of someone who had recently smoked a cigarette.  Oddly those cues all served to comfort me, as it all reminded me of my father, a former police officer who smoked and had a grey beard.  The officer, whose name I do not recall, asked me questions whose sole purpose was to keep me from going over the edge into full blown shock.  I remember waiting for the ambulance to get moving and saying to the officer that “I know it’s bad, they aren’t moving.”  He replied that it was actually a good sign.

As we finally got underway I remember pulling out of our block and seeing Samantha’s minivan stopped and I will never forget the look of confusion on her face.  I wanted to jump out and hold her and grab her, but we just kept moving.  I had hoped she would come with me, but the officer said another police officer would take her to the hospital and we made our way to St. Charles Hospital – the very hospital in which I was born.  I held out hope that the place that saw my light enter the world would prove to be the place that kept darkness from entering my son’s.  Hope was all I had at that point, as my knowledge of physiology told me his light was already extinguished.

When we arrived at the hospital they immediately placed me in a waiting room, and for the first time in my life I recognized the meaning of the term “Like a caged animal”.  I was alone, in a room with no windows – an ersatz cell that seemed apropos considering the situation.  I remember a priest came in to talk to me, and I was just not interested in talking about God at the time.  I didn’t want to hear it.  I asked the priest if he knew anything about Rees and he told me that he heard he was breathing… a miracle that my brain just did not believe.

The next person to enter was Samantha.  She was lost.  She was confused.  She didn’t really know what was going on – and it was on me to explain.  I told her what happened and I told her what the priest said and I finished with a statement of the reality I knew, regardless of what the priest said, our little boy was dead.  Immediately two fists banged against my chest as Samantha wailed, “No, no, no,… not Rees, not our little boy!”.  “What did you do?” she cried, and my reply was “it was an accident” and I recounted the story to her.

We waited about five more minutes before a doctor came in to tell us what Rees’ status was.  His heart was not beating.  They were trying everything they could.  I asked the doctor what his core body temperature was, and she replied 93 degrees.  I knew it was over, and the very question caused the doctor to give me an acknowledging grimace that confirmed my belief.  My little boy was gone.  I knew it, and it felt surreal.  I kept waiting for that moment where I was going to wake up in a cold sweat from a terrible nightmare and it never came.  I still find myself hoping I will wake up from the nightmare, only to find myself waking into the nightmare every morning.  I remember trying to will time itself backwards, thinking my love and will to save him could break apart the constraints of the space time continuum.  It never happened – though part of me still thinks if I try really hard, or if I just prove my worth, I will still be able to do it.

The next visit from the doctor was about 5 minutes later.  She came in, head hung low and obviously dejected.  It was time to say goodbye.  The doctor escorted Samantha and I past the other ER stretchers, and I recall the feeling that every eye was on us.  I felt like a condemned prisoner on his last walk towards the executioner – oblivion faced me and filled me with dread.   When we reached Rees’ bed there was a small army of people around him trying to spark life back into his beautiful little body all to no avail.  I remember making eye contact with a nurse whose face bore the dual agony of knowing she could not save my little boy and having to witness his parents’ grief.  I kneeled down next to Rees and whispered into his ear, “Come on little man, you can do this.  Come back to us.  Our story can’t end here.  I love you, please come back…”, my voice trembling and my heart resigned to the inevitable.  I remember Sam encouraging him to come back.  She kept telling him, “Mommy is here, Mommy is here.  We can ride a tractor.  Come back, come back,  Mommy is here”.  His little heart just couldn’t do it.  Rees was gone…and I fell.

In many ways I am still falling, and fear that I always will be.  His death created a void in my life that I know part of me was swallowed by that day.  I remember a different priest came over to say a prayer and I accosted him telling him, “There is no fucking God, how could God do this to such a beautiful little boy?”  I stood up, walked away and fell again, this time against a wall.  It was the priest who lifted me up.  I apologized to him for my harsh words, and he told me, “I understand, and so does God.”  It proved to be a comfort to me, despite my just declared agnosticism.  Soon the army disbanded and we were given Rees to hold one last time.  He was swaddled like a newborn, and I recall propping his limp head just like one, carefully positioning it in some subconscious way as to not hurt him more.  Sam held him the longest and she spoke to him and caressed his head – running her fingers through his silky hair one last time.  When I held him, I sang to him.  I spoke to him and I spoke my last words to him: “I will always love you”.  I never did say goodbye…

I remember my last moments with Rees as vividly as any single moment in my life, perhaps more so.  The image of my arms cradling him, supporting his limp head, and running my hands through his hair one last time is permanently affixed to my very being.  I explicitly remember the creaky and trembling  tenor of my voice as I tried to sing “Mrs. Pussy(cat)” one last time. The words I whispered to him; “I will always love you” , echo loudly in my mind, reverberating in an infinite loop that I “hear” in my solitude.   I held him tight with a tenderness that was clinically unnecessary, but emotionally imperative.  I sang to him, I spoke to him, I cradled him and caressed him but I never said goodbye to him.  Even when the nurse came to take his lifeless body from us I simply could not muster the nerve or the strength to say that word.

Portrait of Rees, one of many pictures that adorn the walls of the Specht House. Photo Credit: Rich Specht

Portrait of Rees, one of many pictures that adorn the walls of the Specht House. Photo Credit: Rich Specht

Of all the words that I have written, and all of the feelings I have expressed, the one thing I have yet had the courage to say, (or write) is “goodbye”.  I never liked saying goodbye.  It always meant the end of something good, something positive.  Goodbye’s are often temporary, sometimes forever.  We rarely, if ever, say goodbye to things we do not like.  In those cases we say good riddance, or “see ya”, but goodbye is reserved for things we wish to see again.  I have always found it ironic that the word goodbye is used with the intention of hopefully seeing that person again, though the word itself seems so final and makes no mention of future acquaintances.   Interestingly, the expression ‘goodbye’ has analogs in other languages, but their meaning is slightly different and often does reference the hope of future encounters.  In German, for instance, the word for goodbye is auf Wiedersehen – which when translated literally means “until next I see you”.  When compared to goodbye, the German counterpart seems so much more hopeful and less finite.  I wasn’t willing to let my son go forever, so instead of whispering “goodbye” in his little ear, I whispered “Auf Wiedersehen”.  Those were my last words to my little boy.  In my mind’s eye I can still see the nurse carrying him away, swaddled like a newborn, my arms outstretched and my heart aching, yet unable, or more accurately, unwilling to say goodbye.

If I accepted that death is final, and that there is nothing more, then goodbye should have been my final words to my boy.  The man of science in me kept screaming that death is indeed the end of everything we are.  Death is the seceding of order from life’s harmony and structure.  Death is the ultimate expression of entropy; our dissolution into chaos and randomness – the doorway to oblivion.  However, as a father – as well as a son, my heart was telling me that there is something more; an intangible, imperceptible spark that continues past the extinction of life’s flame.  That is why even when I knew I was holding him in his final embrace, that “goodbye” was not the right word.

They took him away and Sam and I were escorted out of the hospital back to the police officer who drove me to the hospital in the first place.  Not much was said, and the ride home was quiet, save for the phone call I made to my Mother to inform her.  When my Mother heard me say “Richie died”, she thought I was my sister – my agonized and stressed voice apparently raising a few octaves enough to confuse her.  I heard my Mother wail, her pain being mine:  My Mother thought she lost me, her son Richie.  It did not dawn on her that it was Rees.  I felt my Mom experience the same fall I just did.  I yelled into the phone to tell her it was Rees and it eventually sunk in for her.  Her son did not die, it was her grandson – a terrible pain to be sure, but not the pain of losing your child.  Her tenor changed when she realized it was Rees and not me and her audible realization caused me the briefest moment of jealousy.  For all intents and purposes her son just died and came back – a comfort I would never know.

As I sit here now, almost four years removed from these events, I find that I am still falling.  Not a moment goes by where I do not think of my little boy.  Not a day passes where the image of him in that pond does not sneak its way into my conscious thoughts.  Every night I go to bed I see him on that table. Every. Single. Night.  I feel like I can still taste the remnants of that last kiss.  My perfect recollection of that day makes it feel as though I know the exact hues of the oranges, browns, and reds of that autumn day and each day that passes brings me one shade closer to my next fall.  The carpet of leaves that will find their way on my lawn will once again cover the ground the way they did that awful day.  Every year there will come a time when I walk outside and catch those familiar smells and see those familiar sites.  Everything that was there when I lost my boy will fall right back to where it was… everything seems to fall back except my boy.

I fall every time that realization hits me, and I suppose it is now my burden to expect that autumn will forever cause me to fall just a little bit more.   But, as one of my favorite movies told me, the reason we fall is so that we can learn to get back up again.  Every autumn leads to winter, and every winter yields to spring.  When looked at from that perspective, fall is nothing more than part of the greater cycle of life.  From death there is life.  Perhaps, instead of lamenting the fall, I can accept the role it plays in the grand scheme of things as it grants me the perspective I need to move forward with my mission.  Fall is also known as the harvest season.   My own fall has taught me that kindness is like a seed that can only grow and spread if it is cultivated with a respect for life.   By that measure, I can look to my fall as the beginning of the harvest of kindness that was cultivated by a little Rees Specht.

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headshot squareRICH SPECHT is a father of four who holds a bachelor’s degree in biology from the University of Mary Washington and a master’s degree in liberal studies from Stony Brook University.  Prior to embarking on his career as a public speaker and advocate for kindness, Rich was a science teacher for 15 years at Great Hollow Middle School, in Nesconset, New York.  In addition to his speaking, Rich is also the published author of the award winning children’s book  A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness.  Rich and his wife, Samantha, are the co-founders of the ReesSpecht Life Foundation which they formed in the wake of the loss of their only son, Richard Edwin-Ehmer (Rees) Specht at 22 months old.  The acts of kindness that the family received after Rees’ passing inspired them to “pay forward” that kindness; which the foundation does in the form of scholarships for High School seniors who demonstrate a commitment to their community, compassion and respect, as well as the distribution of almost four hundred thousand ReesSpecht Life “pay it forward” cards.  The themes and characters from Rich’s book(s) are currently slated to become an animated children’s television series produced by Safier Entertainment.  The book and television adaptations of A Little Rees Specht Cultivates Kindness represents the culmination of Rich’s goal to help make this world a little better, one Rees’ piece at a time.  Rich currently resides in Sound Beach, New York with his wife, Samantha, daughters, Abigail, Lorilei and Melina as well as his angel above, Rees.